Saturday, January 2, 2010

FanFic of Midnight Sun part 2

I have posted a part of this FanFic before. This FanFic is such a wonderful one. I can't stop reading it. I had to share this Chapter because its one of my favorite parts in the Twilight. This FanFic that my bb @KivaJohnsAdkins from twitter made is the finishing of Midnight Sun. She did not copyright. It's what she thinks the book would have ended. We all love Twilight and I truly believe that she did a great job in capturing the same feelings we get from Twilight. Love you KIVA! *muah*






15. MIND OVER MATTER
Bella certainly was in no condition to drive. Besides,
I liked the control of being behind the wheel, even if it was
behind the wheel of a vehicle slow enough to have come right out
of a Flinstones cartoon. Compared to my Volvo her truck drove
like someone attached a governor to it. If her father was as
concerned about her propensity for trouble as I was, he probably
did have a governor installed.
The slow drive home was worth it. When I was forced to
drive at a reasonable speed with Bella I had time to enjoy
observing her. I didn’t really watch the road. My driving
ability was beyond reproach. I had never had an accident and
drove more by the feel of it rather than the sight of the road.
I kept one hand on the wheel and held on to her hand with the
other. I still wasn’t ready for the day to end.
Driving the old truck made me wax nostalgic for some of my
favorite music. I tuned the radio to a fifties station and began
to sing along. I knew the word to every song. Music was a true
passion of mine.
“You like fifties music?” Bella asked, curiously. I thought
I had already proven that I had diverse musical interests.
“Music in the fifties was good. Much better than the
sixties, or the seventies, ugh!” I shuddered to even think about
those two decades of horrid music. “The eighties were bearable.”
“Are you ever going to tell me how old you are?” she asked
pointedly.
The question didn’t bother me. After today, there was not
much she could say or do that would affect me negatively. I
smiled and asked, “Does it matter much?”
She seemed frustrated by my avoidance of the question. “No,
but I still wonder. There’s nothing like an unsolved mystery to
keep you up at night.”
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I looked out into the setting sun and thought about her
request. “I wonder if it will upset you.”
“Try me.” She said.
I sighed and looked into her eyes. When I saw the interest
and the love in her eyes I knew I had no option other than to
answer her question.
“I was born in Chicago in 1901.” I paused and glanced at
Bella out of the corner of my eye. She seemed unfazed and was
patiently waiting to hear the rest. I managed a slight smile,
pleased that I could tell her my story. “Carlisle found me in a
hospital in the summer of 1918. I was seventeen, and dying of
the Spanish influenza.”
I could hear Bella take in a deep breath and I looked into
her eyes again. She still seemed comfortable, despite her
physical response. Surely this was difficult for her to take in.
I came from a different time, a time she almost certainly could
not relate to in any way.
“I don’t remember it well – it was a very long time ago,
and human memories fade.” I thought about that before
continuing. I hope she understood the depth of those words. I
hoped she would never want my life, to give up the memories of
the mother and father she loved so dearly. “I do remember how it
felt, when Carlisle saved me. It’s not an easy thing, not
something you could forget.”
“Your parents?” she asked.
“They had already died from the disease,” I explained. “I
was alone. That is why he chose me. In all the chaos of the
epidemic, no one would ever realize I was gone.”
She pushed for more information. “How did he…save you?”
I paused again and carefully considered my words before
continuing. I wanted her to understand that the process was not
easy, hoping she would never want to go through that herself. I
also did not want to frighten her so much that she would stay
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away from me. After today though, I was certain she was going
nowhere.
“It was difficult. Not many of us have the restraint
necessary to accomplish it. But Carlisle has always been the
most humane, the most compassionate of us…I don’t think you
could find his equal throughout all of history.” I paused again
before I described how it was for me. “For me, it was merely
very, very painful.” That was all I would tell Bella. That was
enough to satisfy her curiosity and keep her from asking for
more details I was unwilling to divulge.
I could tell she was thinking about what I said and I was
grateful for that. She should not be duped by Hollywood into
believing all the stereotypes.
“He acted from loneliness,” I explained. “That’s usually
the reason behind the choice.” I then went on to tell her that I
was the first member of Carlisle’s family, soon followed by
Esme. I told her how Esme had fallen from a cliff and was
brought straight to the morgue, though her heart was somehow
still beating. It was not my place to tell the darkest details
of any of our stories.
“So you must be dying, then, to become…” she hadn’t said
the word vampire and I could tell she was hesitant to speak it
now.
I saved her from her verbal dilemma. “No, that’s just
Carlisle. He would never do that to someone who had another
choice.” I spoke in a low voice as I thought about the
sacrifices Carlisle had made for so many people and for our
family. He was the most admirable man I knew. “It is easier he
says, though, if the blood is weak.”
She prodded further. “And Emmett and Rosalie?”
I then explained to Bella how Carlisle brought Rosalie into
our family next, in the 1930’s – though I did not hint at her
tragic story, the most tragic of any of ours. “I didn’t know
until much later that he was hoping that she would be to me what
Esme was to him – he was careful with his thoughts around me.” I
rolled my eyes at the notion of that match. “But she was never
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more than a sister. It was only two years later that she found
Emmett.”
I told her how we were in Appalachia at that time and
Rosalie had been out hunting when she came across Emmett, about
to be finished off by a bear. I explained how Rosalie had
carried Emmett over 100 miles to Carlisle because she feared she
would not be able to change him herself. “I’m only beginning to
guess how difficult that journey was for her.” I looked directly
at Bella when I said that, raising our joined hands up to brush
her check gently.
Bella was touched by Emmett and Rosalie’s story, even
though Rosalie had been so cruel to her. “But she made it.” She
seemed encouraged by the face that, deep down, Rosalie actually
did have compassion.
“Yes,” I murmured. “She saw something in his face that made
her strong enough. And they’ve been together ever since.” I
smiled and explained to her that sometimes they lived separate
from us, as a married couple and other times, with us as
siblings.
She then asked about Alice and Jasper. The progression was
only natural.
“Alice and Jasper are two very rare creatures. They both
developed a conscience, as we refer to it, with no outside
guidance. Jasper belonged to another…family, a very different
kind of family. He became depressed, and wandered on his own.
Alice found him. Like me, she has certain gifts above and beyond
the norm for our kind.” I explained.
“Really?” she interrupted, excited at that information.
“But you said you were the only one who could hear people’s
thoughts.”
I explained it further to her so she would not think I had
tried to deceive her. “That’s true. She knows other things. She
sees things – things that might happen, things that are coming.
But it’s very subjective. The future isn’t set in stone. Things
change.”
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Bella wondered aloud what kind of things Alice saw and I
told her how she saw Jasper before even he knew he was looking
for her, then how she saw our family and came along with Jasper
to find us. “She’s most sensitive to non-humans. She always
sees, for example, when another group of our kind is coming
near. And any threat they may pose.”
She was surprised. “Are there a lot…of your kind?”
I was sure she thought our family was anomalous and we were
a rarity in our choice to be “vegetarians”. I told her about
Tonya’s family in Denali and how we had all lived there together
at one time, until we had to move away to keep the locals from
questioning our situation. Then I went on to explain that most
of our kind was Nomads, never settling in one place long enough
to be detected.
“Most of us prefer the North,” I said as I pulled the truck
in front of her house and turned the engine off. Chief Swan was
not home yet.
“Why is that?” she asked, as if the explanation was not
obvious. The answer was obvious to me and I thought, after
seeing me today, it would be obvious to her.
“Did you have your eyes open this afternoon?” I teased. “Do
you think I could walk down the street in the sunlight without
causing traffic accidents? There’s a reason why we chose the
Olympic Peninsula, one of the most sunless places in the world.
It’s nice to be able to go outside during the day. You wouldn’t
believe how tired you can get of nighttime in eighty-odd years.”
Now she was starting to put the puzzle pieces together in
her head. “So that’s where the legends came from?”
“Probably,” I replied.
She then asked if Alice came from another family, like
Jasper. I explained that Alice had no memory of her human life.
She had no idea who created her and had woken up alone. I told
her that whoever had made her walked away, which was not
commonplace. “If she hadn’t had the other sense, if she hadn’t
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seen Jasper and Carlisle and known that she would someday become
one of us, she probably would have turned into a total savage.”
Bella chuckled at the thought of sweet little Alice as a
savage. Bella should not underestimate Alice either. No one
should. She took care of herself and Jasper for some time and
was quite capable of terrible destruction. That thought made me
smile.
Suddenly I heard Bella’s stomach rumble and remembered she
hadn’t eaten all day. I hadn’t spent enough time around humans
for extended periods of time. I easily forgot how frequently
they needed to eat. “I’m sorry, I’m keeping you from dinner.”
Bella responded quickly. “I’m fine, really. I want to stay
with you.”
“Can’t I come in?” I asked.
She seemed surprised that I would ask. “Would you like to?”
“Yes, if it’s all right,” I said as I got out of the truck
and moved around to open her door for her.
“Very human,” she smiled at my act of chivalry.
“It’s definitely resurfacing.”
I walked with Bella up to the front door and quickly
reached for the key the Swans kept hidden under the eave. My
move was so quick, Bella didn’t even notice. “The door was
unlocked?” she asked, concerned that she had made a mistake.
“No, I used the key from under the eave.” I revealed.
She stepped inside and flipped on the porch light for
Charlie. I could still see by the expression on her face that
she could not understand how I knew where the key was. I
couldn’t read her mind after all.
“I was curious about you.” I explained.
“You spied on me?” she asked.
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She wasn’t angry and I wasn’t sorry. “What else is there to
do at night?” I moved into the kitchen and sat down at the small
table while she went about warming up left-over lasagna for
dinner. I was already familiar with the house from my nightly
reconnaissance missions.
“How often do you come here?” she finally asked.
“I come here almost every night.” I was not keeping secrets
from Bella any longer and I might as well fess up.
She spun around, confused. “Why?”
“You’re interesting when you sleep,” I explained. “You
talk.”
The pink flush immediately returned to her cheeks. She was
embarrassed, mortified rather. “No!” She even had to grasp the
kitchen countertop to keep from crumbling from the realization I
had seen her at her most vulnerable.
I was concerned that I had upset her, without intending to.
“Are you very angry with me?” I asked.
“That depends!” she exclaimed, breathing deeply.
“On?” I asked. I couldn’t imagine why this would have made
her angry.
“What you heard!” she wailed. Boy was she mad. I actually
like seeing the fire I knew lived inside her but didn’t want it
to be directed towards me. I moved to her side and took her
hands in mine.
“Don’t be upset!” I pleaded with her. I dropped my head
down so my eyes would be at the same level with hers. She tried
to look away but couldn’t.
I tried to reassure her by revealing what I had heard. “You
miss your mother,” I whispered. “You worry about her. And when
it rains, the sound makes you restless. You used to talk about
home a lot but it is less often now. Once you said, ‘It’s too
green.’” I chuckled.
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“Anything else?” she demanded. I could tell she still
didn’t believe I had told her everything.
“You did say my name,” I admitted.
“A lot?” she sighed. I could tell by her defeatist attitude
that this was exactly what she had feared.
“How much do you mean by ‘a lot’ exactly?”
She hung her head in abject embarrassment. “Oh no!”
I pulled her against my chest, softly. I wanted to comfort
her and reassure her that I thought that her nocturnal
revelations were endearing.
I whispered in her ear, “Don’t be self-conscious. If I
could dream at all, it would be about you. And I’m not ashamed
of it.”
Just as I said that we both heard Charlie pull up out
front. “Should your father know I’m here?” I asked.
She thought quickly and said, “I’m not sure…”
“Another time then…”I whispered then quickly exited the
back of the house.
I was still close enough to hear Bella call, “Edward!” I
had to laugh. I would see her soon enough.
Bella and Charlie ate their Lasagna and reviewed their days
with each other. I could tell from Charlie’s side of it, Bella
was in a hurry.
It wasn’t long before she appeared in her room. After my
revelation to her I guess I shouldn’t have been surprised that
she had expected me to be there.
“Edward?” she whispered, searching the darkness for me.
“Yes?” I laughed from behind her. I was lying comfortably
on her small bed, my feet hanging off the end and my hands
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behind my head. I think I scared her to death. She spun around,
grabbing her throat.
“Oh!” she gasped, sinking to the floor.
“I’m sorry.” I apologized, trying not to laugh.
“Just give me a moment to restart my heart.”
I slowly sat up, trying not to frighten her any further. I
gently grasped her by the top of her arms and lifted her onto
the bed beside me.
We sat there for a few moments while her heart rate
returned to normal. I could not believe her reaction. Again, I
expected her to expect me to be in her room. Perhaps actually
seeing me there for the first time was what shocked her.
“Can I have a minute to be human?” she asked.
“Certainly,” I said, raising one hand to encourage her to
do as she needed.
She turned to me and pleaded, “Stay.”
“Yes, ma’am,” I complied.
She leapt off the bed and gathered her pajamas and bathroom
necessities from her desk. She left the light off and slipped
out the door, closing it behind her.
I obeyed her wishes and waited patiently for her to return.
I didn’t move an inch. I just scanned her room with my eyes,
seeing things in a new light after days of questioning,
gathering more insight into her.
There was a bulletin board with a drawing of her and her
dad she had made as a child, with Bella scrawled across the
bottom in crayon. There were pictures of her with her mom
standing in front of a cactus and another with Renee and Phil at
a ball field. There were various mementos such as tickets from
concerts and ball games she had attended. I noticed a picture of
her and a woman that must have been her grandmother Swan.
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Everything in her room indicated a typical teen-age girl
lived in it but Bella was far from typical and far more mature
than any teen-age girl I had ever met.
It wasn’t very long before I heard her shout down to
Charlie. “Night, Dad.”
“Night Bella.” He replied back.
Suddenly she was back. She was standing next to her bed in
her usual sleeping attire, comfortable gray sweatpants and a
holey t-shirt. The way she tossed and turned at night she needed
comfortable clothing to sleep in. I deduced that she had worn
the holes in the shirt from her sleep pattern. Her hair was damp
and I could smell the strawberry scent of her shampoo. I raised
one eyebrow in approval. “Nice,” I said.
The grimace on her face indicated she was no in agreement
with my feelings.
“No, it looks good on you.” I meant that. Aside from that
awful sweater, I had not seen one thing that looked bad on
Bella. She was what most humans described as “the girl next
door” and I loved that about her. There was no one in the world,
human or inhuman that was more beautiful to me than she was.
Bella made no secret of the fact that she believed Rosalie
was the epitome of true beauty. I saw things differently. Bella
didn’t wear make-up and she didn’t need to. She had naturally
radiant skin and her dark, chocolate eyes were that much more
exotic against her pale complexion. Bella’s beauty emanated from
within.
She returned to my side, sitting cross-legged, looking down
at the floor. “Thanks,” she whispered. I only wished she could
comprehend how truly beautiful I found her.
“What was all that for?” I asked, referring to her stomping
and slamming of doors.
“Charlie thinks I’m sneaking out.” She answered with a
frustrated smirk.
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“Oh.” How could he think that? Sneaking out wasn’t Bella’s
style. He needed to be more concerned with whom, or what, was
sneaking in. “Why?” I asked.
“Apparently, I look a little over-exited.” She grinned.
I reached for her face and, with my fingers, I gently
lifted her chin, admiring her flawless face.
“You look very warm, actually.” I said. I then bent my face
towards her, laying my cheek against her skin. Feeling her
warmth against my cool skin made me feel more…human. Her warmth
enveloped me. “Mmmmmm…” I breathed her scent in.
She wasn’t saying much. I had a feeling I was dazzling her
again.
“It seems to be…much easier for you, now to be close to
me.” She finally said.
I glided my nose to the corner of her jaw, gently moving
her damp hair out of the way so that I could kiss the hollow
space beneath her ear. “Does it seem that way to you?” I
murmured, never opening my eyes.
“Much, much easier,” she breathed slowly. She was trying to
be very still. She had been very cautious of her movements since
my over-reaction earlier in the day at the meadow.
“Hmmm.” I purred.
“So, I was wondering…” she said as I ran my fingers lightly
across her collarbone. Yes. She was dazzled. She couldn’t even
complete a thought.
“Yes?” I breathed.
“Why is that,” she asked, her voice trembling, “do you
think?”
I laughed lightly at her exhibition of human weakness.
“Mind over matter.” I stated.
She pulled back from me and I didn’t move. I instinctively
stopped breathing. We both looked at each other with caution,
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wondering what the other had done and what her reaction had
meant. I looked at her with confusion, hoping she would explain.
“Did I do something wrong?” I asked. Not being able to read
her mind was extremely frustrating.
“No – the opposite. You’re driving me crazy,” she responded.
That pleased me. I couldn’t help but to smile as I pondered
her answer. As new feelings and emotions surfaced for me they
seemed to be awakening within her as well. “Really?” I asked.
I must have sounded arrogant by her response. “Would you
like a round of applause?”
I continued to smile. Nothing could take the smile off of
my face. Yes, I was pleased with myself and I was with Bella.
That always made me smile. “I’m just pleasantly surprised,” I
said. “In the last hundred years or so I never imagined anything
like this. I didn’t believe I would ever find someone I wanted
to be with…in another way than my brothers and sisters. And then
to find, even though it’s all new to me, that I’m good at it…at
being with you…”
“You’re good at everything,” she pointed out.
I shrugged my shoulders. I couldn’t argue with that. I had
yet to find anything I was not good at but this whole human
emotion thing was unchartered territory for me.
She asked me how it had gotten so easy for me, given how
difficult it had been as early as this afternoon in the meadow.
I apologized for my awful behavior then and told her that it
wasn’t so much easy as I had found the strength within me to
fight that urge. I lifted one of her hands to my face and
breathed in the scent from her wrist, to prove to her I was able
to handle this closeness. “Mind over matter,” I reiterated.
My mood turned serious, feeling the inner turmoil that
still plagued me when it came to Bella. “I’m trying,” I said.
“If it gets to be…too much, I’m fairly sure I’ll be able to
leave.”
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Her face puckered with displeasure. She didn’t want to
think of me leaving any more than I did.
I explained to her that, every time I was away from her for
any length of time, it would be more difficult again. I told her
it was easier for me tonight than today because I had been
breathing her scent in all day, de-sensitizing myself to it.
Each time I went away and came back, it was like the first day I
caught her scent.
“Don’t go away then,” she pleaded. She must have decided I
could hide in her closet every night while she slept. Surely
Charlie wouldn’t notice my presence.
I smiled and gently wrapped my fingers around her wrists.
“That suits me. Bring on the shackles. I am your prisoner.”
“You seem more optimistic than usual,” she pointed out. “I
haven’t seen you like this before.”
I smiled at her. She was finally relaxed around me. She
trusted me. She realized I only wanted to love her and protect
her – not hurt her. I liked seeing this version of Bella – no
emotional walls.
“Isn’t it supposed to be like this?” I asked. “The glory of
first love, and all that. It’s incredible, isn’t it, the
difference between reading about something, seeing it in the
pictures, and experiencing it?”
“Very different,” she agreed. “More forceful than I’d
imagined.”
We were both experiencing this first love thing together,
only it had taken me nearly 100 years to experience it. But it
was so powerful and so magnificent and intoxicating, it was
worth every decade I spent alone.
I tried to explain another emotion I was feeling to Bella –
jealousy. I was unsure of what it was at first. I realized after
I experienced the same sensation each time one of the boys at
school asked her out what the emotion was. I told her I tried
not to care but I found it impossible.
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I confessed to her that the day all the boys had lined up
to ask her to the dance was the first night I had come to her
room. I watched her sleep; hoping the answer would come to me in
dealing with what I knew was right vs. what I wanted.
“And then,” I whispered seductively, “as you were sleeping,
you said my name. You spoke so clearly, at first I thought you’d
woken. But you rolled over restlessly and mumbled my name once
more, and sighed. The feeling that coursed through me then was
unnerving, staggering. And I knew I couldn’t ignore you any
longer.” I paused for a moment. I could hear her heart race and
I had to be sure why – if it was out of anger that I heard this
or because she was moved by the affect her words had on me.
“But jealousy…it’s a strange thing. So much more powerful
than I would have thought. And irrational! Just now, when
Charlie asked you about that vile Mike Newton…”I shook my head
in totally disgust.
“I should have known you’d be listening,” she groaned. I
don’t think she would ever get used to my gift.
“Of course.” I grinned.
“That made you feel jealous, though, really?”
“I’m new at this; you’re resurrecting the human in me and
everything feels stronger because it’s fresh.”
I had so many new feelings and emotions coming to “life”
within me that I wasn’t sure how I was going to manage them.
Being this close to Bella was not only difficult because of her
scent but because she was a beautiful woman and I was feeling
cravings for her that I had never anticipated. I was a gentleman
vampire though and I would not act on those desires – not yet.
My revelation opened the door for Bella to express her
insecurity over not being comparable to Rosalie. Of course she
wasn’t – not even close. Rosalie was beautiful, but shallow and
self-centered. That lessened her beauty to me.
“There’s no competition.” I reassured her, pulling her arms
around my back, gathering her into my chest.
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“I know there’s no competition,” she mumbled. She had taken
it the wrong way. “That’s the problem.”
“Of course Rosalie is beautiful, in her way, but even if
she wasn’t like a sister to me, even if Emmett didn’t belong
with her, she could never have one tenth, no, one hundredth of
the attraction you hold for me.” I spoke with such sincerity and
thoughtfulness; I hoped it would help her understand how
strongly I felt towards her. “For almost ninety years I’ve
walked among my kind and yours…all the time thinking I was
complete in myself, not realizing what I was seeking. And not
finding anything, because you weren’t alive yet.”
When she spoke, it was typical Bella – selflessly, the
exact opposite of how Rosalie would have responded. “It hardly
seems fair,” she whispered, not moving from my hold on her. “I
haven’t had to wait at all. Why should I get off so easily?”
I grinned and chuckled slightly. Only Bella would think she
was getting off easily. “You’re right. I should make this harder
for you, definitely.” I took one of her hands in mine and, with
the other hand, gently stroked her wet hair that hung to her
waist. “You only have to risk your life every second you spend
with me, that’s surely not much. You only have to turn your back
on nature, on humanity…what’s that worth?”
“Very little – I don’t feel deprived of anything.”
How simply she thought of everything. Mortality, and
immortality were so much more complicated than she seemed to
grasp.
Her words filled me with an overwhelming sadness. I did not
want for her what I had suffered through. Of course my parents
were already gone when Carlisle changed me, but years of this
existence had wiped away most of my human memories. If it
weren’t for Bella bringing out those emotions in me now,
allowing me to share with her those human experiences I never
had…
I held on tightly to her wrists. I could tell she was
trying to move back, to look at me. I did not want her to see
the expression on my face. It was bad enough the tone of my
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voice was giving a hint of my sadness. Just then, I heard
Charlie coming quietly up the stairs.
“Lie down!” I hissed at her. Then I stepped back into the
darkness where he could not see me. Sure enough, be peeked in on
her to make sure she was still in her room. She breathed in and
out deeply to convince him she was sleeping soundly. What a
horrible actress. Fortunately Charlie believed her and retired
to his room for the night.
I then returned to her bed and lay down next to her, on top
of the quilt so it served as a barrier between her and my cold
skin.
“Should I sing you to sleep?” I asked. I began to hum the
lullaby I had composed at home for her. She had never heard it
before.
She laughed. “Right. Like I could sleep with you here.”
I had to remind her of the obvious. “You do it all the
time.”
She rolled her eyes and reached over to lay her hand on my
chest. It still sent shockwaves through me when she touched me.
Why didn’t she run away like every other human would? She seemed
to have no survival instincts whatsoever.
She scolded me with her reply. “But I didn’t know you were
here.”
“So if you don’t want to sleep…” I said, ignoring her tone.
She caught her breath. Amazing. I surprised her.
“If I don’t want to sleep…?” she asked.
I laughed. I enjoyed teasing her. She was so easy “What do
you want to do then?”
“I’m not sure,” she answered. I could almost hear the gears
in her head turning. He heart was certainly racing.
I thought I would further complicate her decision process
by running my nose along her neck, breathing her scent in deeply.
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“I thought you were de-sensitized,” she whispered.
“Just because I’m resisting the wine doesn’t mean I can’t
appreciate the bouquet,” I whispered. “You have a very floral
smell, like lavender…or freesia,” I added. “It’s mouthwatering.”
“I’ve decided what I want to do,” she answered. “I want to
hear more about you.”
Her willpower was certainly something to be marveled at.
“Ask me anything.” I said. Being so close to her and
feeling the warmth radiate from her body, breathing in her scent
made me vulnerable. She could have asked me anything and I would
have complied, without hesitation.
“Why do you do it?” she asked. “I still don’t understand
how you can work so hard to resist what you…are, Please don’t
misunderstand, of course I’m glad that you do. I just don’t see
why you would bother in the first place.”
I gave what she asked some thought before I answered her.
“That’s a good question, and you are not the first one to ask
it. The others – the majority of our kind who are quite content
with our lot – they, too, wonder at how we live. But you see,
just because we’ve been…dealt a certain hand…it doesn’t mean
that we can’t choose to rise above – to conquer the boundaries
of a destiny that none of us wanted. To try to retain whatever
essential humanity we can.”
She didn’t move, but looked deeply into my eyes. She was
transfixed.
“Did you fall asleep?” I asked.
“No.”
I thought I was getting off easy. “Is that all you are
curious about?”
She rolled her eyes. I knew better. “Not quite.”
“What else do you want to know?” she asked.
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“Why can you read minds – why only you? And Alice, seeing
the future…why does that happen?”
I shrugged. I wasn’t sure I completely understood the whys
myself. “We don’t really know. Carlisle has a theory…he believes
that we all bring something of our strongest human traits with
us into the next life, where they are intensified – like our
minds, and our senses. He thinks that I must have already been
very sensitive to the thoughts of those around me. And that
Alice has some precognition, wherever she was.”
She went on to ask what the others brought into this life.
I explained that Carlisle brought his compassion, Esme her
ability to love passionately, Emmett his strength and Rosalie
her tenacity. Then I tried to explain to her how Jasper seemed
to have the ability to control the emotions of those around him,
calming a tense situation or exciting a lethargic group.
She took in all the information I had beset her with. Then
she asked me how it all started. She knew, obviously, that
Carlisle had created me and that someone had to create him, but
she wanted to understand the beginning.
“Well, where did you come from?” I posed to her.
“Evolution? Creation? Couldn’t we have evolved in the same way
as other species, predator or prey? Or, if you don’t believe
that all this world could have just happened on its own, which
is hard for me to accept myself, is it so hard to believe that
the same force that created the delicate angelfish with the
shark, the baby seal and the killer whale, could create both of
our kinds together?”
“Let me get this straight – I’m the baby seal, right?”
“Right.” I laughed, gently pressing my lips to her hair.
Resisting her was going to be so difficult. But I had to
remember I didn’t kill her today. I had resisted an urge I
thought impossible, so surely I could resist this human desire.
“Are you ready to sleep?” I asked. “Or do you have more
questions?”
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“Only a million or two,” she retorted, snuggling closer to
me. How could she find my cold, stone figure comforting? I
imagined it would have been like sidling up to a block of ice
for her.
I reassured her there was time. “We have tomorrow, and the
next day, and the next…” She sighed with relief and closed her
eyes, comforted by my promise.
“Are you sure you won’t vanish in the morning?” she asked.
“You are mythical, after all.”
“I won’t leave you.” I promised her. I never wanted to
leave her. I wanted every day and every night to be just as this
one had – magical and real.
She was much like a young child who fought sleep off,
talking their heads off until they passed out. She had another
question but seemed to be embarrassed to ask it. Even in the
darkness of her room I could feel the blush of her cheeks. When
she changed her mind about asking me I reassured her that she
could ask me anything. After all, had I denied her one request?
She was being quite stubborn about asking the question. I
prodded her, convincing her I would assume it was something much
more awful than I was certain it was. Again, this would be one
of those times that reading her mind would make this all easier
for us both.
“Well,” she started. “You said that Rosalie and Emmett will
get married soon…Is that…marriage…the same as it is for humans?”
She struggled to finish the question, but she managed. I had to
chuckle because now I knew what she was getting at, what had
embarrassed her. “Is that what you are getting at?”
I could feel her squirm with anxiety. I know she wanted to
know the answer but she also seemed to wish she had not actually
asked.
“Yes, I suppose it is much the same,” I said. “I told you,
most of the human desires are there, just hidden behind more
powerful desires.”
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“Oh.” She said.
“Was there a purpose behind your curiosity?” I asked,
wondering.
“Well, I did wonder…about you and me…someday…”
Why couldn’t she move more slowly? It was just today that
she had seen me in my truest form. She should take the time to
contemplate that rather than pushing for something I could never
give her, no matter how desperately I might want to. It would be
too dangerous. I told her simply that I did not think that would
be possible for us.
“Because it would be too hard for you, if I were that…
close?”
“That’s certainly a problem. But that’s not what I was
thinking of. It’s just that you are so soft, so fragile. I have
to mind my actions every moment that we are together so that I
don’t hurt you. I could kill you quite easily, Bella, simply by
accident.” I moved the palm of my hand to her cheek. I didn’t
want her to think that I did not desire her in that way. I was
only concerned with her safety. “If I was too hasty…if for one
second I wasn’t paying enough attention, I could reach out,
meaning to touch your face, and crush your skull by mistake. You
don’t realize how incredibly breakable you are. I can never,
never afford to lose any kind of control when I’m with you.”
I waited for her to respond, to let me know she understood
my rationalization. “Are you scared?” I asked.
“No. I’m fine.” She said softly.
Now it was my turn to ask a question. I had to wonder where
her curiosity on the subject had come from. “I’m curious now,
though,” I said softly. I didn’t want to offend her. “Have you
ever….?”
Again, I could feel her blush. “Of course not.” She said
matter-of-factly. “I told you I’ve never felt like this about
anyone before, not even close.”
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I explained to her that I was so used to reading other
people’s thoughts and that I knew that love and lust did not
always co-exist. She assured me that they did with her, now that
they existed at all.
“That’s nice,” I said, relieved that neither of us had
experienced that level of intimacy with anyone. “We have that
one thing in common, at least.”
“Your human instincts…” she started. “Well, do you find me
attractive, in that way, at all?”
How could she not know that? I ruffled her hair, which was
almost dry, with my hand and answered her. “I may not be human,
but I am a man.”
She yawned and I told her I had answered her questions and
encouraged her to go to sleep. When she told me she wasn’t sure
if she could I offered to leave. She was quite insistent that I
stay. Then I began to hum her lullaby softly in her ear. She
quickly drifted off into a restful sleep, wrapped in my cold
arms and a thin quilt.
After a few hours of lying next to her, I was certain she
had fallen into a deep, restful sleep. It had been an exhausting
day after all.
She only said a couple of things and it was with a smile
on her face. The words brought satisfaction to me and I knew I
had time to run home to shower and change clothes. I would
return before she ever missed me.
Of course my family was anxious to see me, although Alice
would have already told them the day went well.
“Hi Edward,” Alice said cheerfully before I had even
crossed the threshold of the front door.
Hello Alice. Don’t look so surprised. How refreshing to be
able to speak with my thoughts again.
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I saw that you didn’t hurt her. But I want details. Alice
had at least not embarrassed me in front of the family.
“I am a gentleman, Alice. I do not kiss and tell,” I
whispered in her ear as I walked past her to go up the stairs to
my bedroom.
You kissed her? She thought excitedly. There was no hiding
her excitement from the family as her bright eyes light up.
I ignored Alice and passed the rest of the family as I went
about my business.
“Edward is bringing Bella here later.” I could hear Alice
tell the family as soon as I reached my bedroom.
“Wonderful.” Esme said, clapping her hands together. I am
sure she was already beginning to plan how they all should
present themselves to Bella.
“I refuse to be here.” I heard Rosalie protest.
“Rosalie, we will all be here,” Carlisle said calmly.
“Edward is your brother. We support each other in this family.”
I was done quickly and back down the stairs before Rosalie
could complain much further.
“We’ll see you later Edward,” Esme said gleefully as I
headed out the door, back to Bella’s room.
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Robert Pattinson Is The Apple Of Our Eye

HE IS SOOO DREAMY

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Post the record smashing commercial harvest of his twin ‘Twilight’ fares, ‘Vampire’ hunk Robert Pattinson has gone from the starry -eyed affable kid next door with heady showbiz dreams to a reigning teen icon with that discernible celeb halo, commanding a massive presence and a legion of manic, obsessive fans worldwide.

From a small time teen actor and a near anonymous co –star to the likes of Dan Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint in ‘The Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire’, the handsome lad has sure journeyed long and far to scale the tall pedestal that he presently reigns in.

In the days and months since he posted those twin big screen monsters called ‘Twilight’ and ‘The Twilight Series: The New Moon’, even the tiniest trivia about Rob Pattinson has become the subject of grapevine spice and yet the screaming, swooning ‘vampire’ faithfuls doesn’t seem to get enough of their fave star.

Scarcely has a young actor been more extensively and exhaustively documented than this hunky British actor and his rumored romance with ‘Twilight’ co –star Kristen Stewart has arguably been among the most keenly followed topics on the cyberspace and even a legion of fair Robstruck maidens appear to be game with this rumored ‘vampire flame’ and bears no grudge against either Rob or Kris.

And not just the youth, it appears that Rob’s charming aura and star –appeal cuts across all conceivable age groups.

And despite his meteoric rise to the heady highs of fame and fortune, Rob appears surprisingly grounded and humble and calls himself ‘just a normal guy’…….thereby bearing out the fact that here’s an actor who is not likely to let heady overnight stardom get to his head but rather take his steps with care in the notoriously slippery world of showbiz.

.Having had a phenomenal 2k9, here’s hoping that our fave ‘vampire’ will string even better years career –wise and continue to remain the ‘apple of our eye.

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FanFic Wuthering Heights

THIS FANFIC WAS SENT TO ME...ITS NOT TWILIGHT BUT TWI-HARDS U KNOW THAT ITS BELLA's FAVORITE BOOK. EDWARD AND BELLA RESITE LINES TO EACH OTHER FROM THIS STORY. TO KEEP THE SPECIAL LOVE FEELING GOING THIS FANFIC IS ABOUT WUTHERING HEIGHTS. THIS IS AN AWSOME STORY AND I JUST SIMPLY LOVE IT. SO ENJOY!




I am Heathcliff! He's always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own being. So don't talk of our separation again: it is impracticable.'

-Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte)

Throughout time, as long as humans have loved, they have believed in soul mates. One person out there, tied to them, the missing piece of their soul. What else could explain that feeling of incompletion, the need to search, to scour the globe until the puzzle piece is found?

Everyone from royalty to peasants has searched, has looked into the eyes of another, wondering, is it you? Have I found you?

But fate does not intend an easy path for all. Sometimes, death interferes. Sometimes the world conspires to keep soul mates apart.

But sometimes, the bitterest pill to take is the soul mate that has been there all of your life. The soul mate who wants to consume you, to own you, to drink your strength. The soul mate that is tied to you, and you are shackled to them.

Fate dealt a cruel card to Bella Swan. This was one instance where it may have been better if the souls had never found each other, but, as always, they had been dragged together like black magnets.

On one side of the coin, it was a blessing, because Bella had her soul mate by her side since the moment she first opened her eyes on this world.

But on the flipside, the blessing was her curse: her wicked soul mate could hear her thoughts, read her like a book and use what he wished.

It took her most of her life to realize she was being conquered, and years to escape his tyranny.

As Bella drove towards Forks, her eyes trained on the horizon, she forced her mind to stop. Choice, she told herself. The greatest gift in life was choice.

She took some deep breaths, techniques taught to her by her psychologist, and stared at the purple-smudge clouds hovering over Forks like bruises. She deliberately relaxed her grip on the steering wheel, the last shaft of sunlight glinting off her bright engagement ring.

She allowed the pleasure of the lush greenery to soothe her, and wound down her window to breathe the sweet air. She tried to stop feeling like she was driving into battle. Even though she was.


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Robert Pattinson is Shocked about Fans in the UK

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Robert Pattinson says he was shocked by all the London fan attention. Twilight,New Moon,and Eclipse movie star, Robert Pattinson recently gave an interview to Absolute.co.uk in his hometown of London,England. He revealed that he was shocked by the outrageous fan attention over there,and a few other things.

Robert started off saying that “New Moon” was easier to shoot because he mostly played the supporting role in it. They weren’t really relying on him to push the movie forward. He commented about missing his normal life, when asked. He said, “Uh, yeah, sometimes.”
They asked him to give the fans a wave to see what would happen. They screamed. However, he said he was a little shocked by them doing that in his hometown because he always thought it was just a foreign thing. He also revealed that he was spending Christmas with his family in London. He concluded the interview,by telling the reporters that he has never gotten to show Kristen Stewart and Taylor Lautner his hometown because they hardly spent any time there when they were touring.



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